heart ramblings

assalamualaikum...

Yoshh!

It has been awhile shabby-dusty-blog...

time envy me much or its just me who constantly failing to keep up with the time..

thought of shutting this down...as this blog pon hidup segan mati tak mahu.

but...it seems to be my last option of escapism 

writes in piece of paper and throw it away

draw what I think crumble it and put them in the bin

walk on the bridge and my heart melts watching sunset

step out from house and watch so cuddly cloud makes me smile

bring my camera and walk around the lake watching itik buat kuak lentang make me sengih x ingat dunia

luar alam I am...but few escapisms for countless times when i couldnt keep up with my own heart battle

hard.enuf said.

this year is really tough.

for heart which cant just settle down.

losing my support system 

for a cold me to cry even they crossed my mind

as tough as i appeared to be.

I just cant keep up.

May Allah bless them for changing me for a better person

owe them big time

my prayers always with you guys.always

looking for the root of the problem...and its really a test from Allah

How much I can endure...how much I could take.

To change for good aint easy.and the three months home affects me in every way possible

came back here crippled here and there

to heal back all the broken parts...take longer time then before

an advise...I am losing my heart.and the journey to find back the heart aint easy

looking for support...so I wont be lost.but paranoid of any attachment makes it a lot more harder.

and at the end...here I am...as blur as I could be.as heartbroken and haywire as I could say.Big hug for those who can endure.and those who cant.because i know.I am a tough creature for anyone to handle with care.wheauuu~

whatever it is...

what is life if it is just plain without any splash of dark colours

jaded's 30042012

I made a promised to myself it will not be about heart ranting...but here I am ranting over stuff.I think nobody cares.peace.^^.V