Subtle lesson

Today
I was tested...

But
Allah has His own way
Of reminding me

When I sit and reflect
When people think of your bad more than your good
That means you have not done much good
And

"Always make peace..even it means to swallow your pride"

R...ational?

It was past one year when I felt the need of throwing the never ending list of songs i had...really.earpiece was left out whenever I went out.which is abnormal.

Indeed.from headbanging song to mellow nasyid songs aint easy.

And proven, none of them stuck in my head except a few piece from zain bikha and the clan.

It hit me thou.

Between both facts.getting rid of everything and start clean.or slowly get rid of the bad habit and replacing with something new.

The analogy was like a full glass of water and when you take out a bit of them, u have the emptiness that should be filled with.

The drastic of getting rid of the list wasnt a big help.Youtube is there.

And I keep on listening as my rationalisation was I did not commit anything wrong by listening.by being moderate and knowing the limit and keeping everything balance.

But ultimately, I know. I should cut the tie.

Just.not.yet

Its hard. To handle people's perception on you.

Thou you know their judgement won't effect the Judgement by Him.

People walk their path differently.

As some might have to make a simple U-turn to get back on the right path.

Some might get stuck in traffic.

Or even get lost in the middle and have to take miles to find way back.

But ultimately, they keep on moving and hopefully end up on the right same spot as others.

We have different struggles. Each and everyone of us.

As long as we realize our final pitstop.

I know we would crawl if we have to

To reach the final destination.

Never fret then, Allah is watching.

People's talking.

Yahh..it hurt.

But let not them glue us to the ground.

Fly if you could.

Walk if you can't.

Crawl if its too much.

And stand up right when you recharge.

Tapi kadang..even you have to beat the rationalisation and rationalize is it really rational.got it.jangan nak memanjang watlek watpeace.skali Allah tarik nyawa.mampu nak tengok timbang tara pahala dosa kat 'sana'?

Spirit.

Teguran

Weyh...kuang asam.bak balik air aku.

Kedekut tahap gaban la ko ni Bilal.aku minum sikit jer.minum air manis banyak-banyak kena diabetis.tak sahut seruan kerajaan betul.buat letih deorang naikkan harga gula.

Yerla Uwais.membebel ko pandai.rokok kat tangan kau ape citer?GST nak naik.harga barang makin mahal.sanggup jugak hari-hari kau sedut asap.aku taleh brain la.

Gelagat mereka aku pandang.both have valid argument.tapi biasalah...when someone touches on your weak point.you defend yourself by bringing down the other party.

Lagaknya kerajaan lawan pembangkang.
Tak pernah menang mencari salah.

Basisnya.
Kita pantang di tegur.
Baik tua baik muda.

Orang yang menegur kadang menegur mengejek.
Kalau yang menegur ikhlas.di katakan poyo.
Akhirnya..sama-sama hanyut.

Bosan menegur
Bosan di tegur

Statik lah kita.
Tunggu sampai Allah tegur?

Jaded.
Random evening.
It smells raindrop.

Ini Cerita Acan

Mata bundarnya aku tenung...dalam
What have you went through boy?
Aku melepaskan keluh berat
Jumpa mereka buat aku ingat realiti hidup.
Tapi hati meronta tiap kali
Terasa lemah bila tangan tak mampu menggapai lebih
Sekadarnya..berborak.bertanya khabar.

It was the best one hour.

Acan
He carves the sweetest smile when I saw him
Left there because pengabaian...same case with others.
Hebatnya Acan.the basis of prayers.5 times in a day.
He made a promise.to keep it full.
Hantu matematik.pantang kira2...
Otak ligat.mata bulat.tangan lincah.
I don't see any sign of "stupidity" in him
No.he is bright.

Acan

Kenapa mak ayah aku tak datang tengok kat sini eyh?

Nanti ak nak tulis surat banyak-banyak kat mak ayah.

Akak,saya tak sabar nak tunggu 2015.
saya bebas.

Akak...jangan lupa kami.nanti cari kami yer.

These words.

it broke my heart.yes.
It opened my eyes.yes.
It taught me life through them.yes.

I fall back to ground zero.helpless.

How will they walk this life.
When it was never easy for those who were lucky.

Prayers.that is the only thing that will fly and sink deep to them.
With Allah wills.for sure.

Ini cerita acan.

Jaded

If we ever know

There was a talk, that I really wanted to go.
but as a student living in money-eater-city of kuala lumpur
i can't afford the ticket
so what I did was I emailed 'em...asking for discounts and any free admission or half price admission or free volunteers do I can get through to the talk...you know.very cunning.heh.

but there was none available.and they were sorry too.

and I told my naqibah about this.she was cool.and she said she will think of a way.

and a week later we were told that we have a free tafseer class from this 'ustaz'
the fee is ' a steadfast heart'
not that cheap...that was our response.
 and yeap..with that call.we went.leaving behind a whole bunch of practicum works undone.
we went.and late as always.

the first greeting from the mak cik was, 'hah lambat, ustaz dah lama tunggu'
and we were 45 minutes late.dayumm
we thought that the class will start even without us.there should be other people aite.
we walked in.and thats it. we were the only audience.

the tafseer class was meant for us.
the ustaz came solely for us.
the makcik who was a doctor (you how busy they are) spared her house for us
they all...with all their might.did this to provide us with tafseer class.

may Allah bless them
may Allah help us to learn about the Deen.
make du'a for our heart to stay steadfast regardless of anything.

jaded's