heart ramblings

assalamualaikum...

Yoshh!

It has been awhile shabby-dusty-blog...

time envy me much or its just me who constantly failing to keep up with the time..

thought of shutting this down...as this blog pon hidup segan mati tak mahu.

but...it seems to be my last option of escapism 

writes in piece of paper and throw it away

draw what I think crumble it and put them in the bin

walk on the bridge and my heart melts watching sunset

step out from house and watch so cuddly cloud makes me smile

bring my camera and walk around the lake watching itik buat kuak lentang make me sengih x ingat dunia

luar alam I am...but few escapisms for countless times when i couldnt keep up with my own heart battle

hard.enuf said.

this year is really tough.

for heart which cant just settle down.

losing my support system 

for a cold me to cry even they crossed my mind

as tough as i appeared to be.

I just cant keep up.

May Allah bless them for changing me for a better person

owe them big time

my prayers always with you guys.always

looking for the root of the problem...and its really a test from Allah

How much I can endure...how much I could take.

To change for good aint easy.and the three months home affects me in every way possible

came back here crippled here and there

to heal back all the broken parts...take longer time then before

an advise...I am losing my heart.and the journey to find back the heart aint easy

looking for support...so I wont be lost.but paranoid of any attachment makes it a lot more harder.

and at the end...here I am...as blur as I could be.as heartbroken and haywire as I could say.Big hug for those who can endure.and those who cant.because i know.I am a tough creature for anyone to handle with care.wheauuu~

whatever it is...

what is life if it is just plain without any splash of dark colours

jaded's 30042012

I made a promised to myself it will not be about heart ranting...but here I am ranting over stuff.I think nobody cares.peace.^^.V

 

 

One strong girl

Distance never separates two hearts that really care,

 for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there.

 But whenever I start feeling sad, because I miss you,

 I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss.. ;)

As icy cold and less responsive i could be at certain period of time

and how much am pushing everyone away

thanks to you for keep knocking on the door

weirdo i am when it comes to heart matters..

and you know it well aite friend

so...i specially dedicate this post for you over there

how hard life hits you

how your heart and my heart berbolak balik each and everytime

remember that Allah is always watching you

when it seems that life is falling apart

try to collect all the small pieces together

put them back and glue dengan gam cap gajah A+++ 

let it shatters because after that only u will get stronger

my deepest apologies

for being so carefree about others

honestly~i am not at my right state of mind

too much too compute and am pulling away

will be back soon enuf..^^.V

looking for a lost heart...corny.haha

but i mean it...struggle.battle.war zone.inside.unexplained.

do take care.

Ingat purpose of life

and never let anything pull you away from that

less useful advice for me yet endless haphazard ranting and comments

wheauuu.

jaded's for the one who never left.

u make my life in every way possible.

<3

jaded30042012...while am doraemon like wrapped with comforter and jumper while writing this.hahaha