It has been awhile shabby-dusty-blog...
time envy me much or its just me who constantly failing to keep up with the time..
thought of shutting this down...as this blog pon hidup segan mati tak mahu.
but...it seems to be my last option of escapism
writes in piece of paper and throw it away
draw what I think crumble it and put them in the bin
walk on the bridge and my heart melts watching sunset
step out from house and watch so cuddly cloud makes me smile
bring my camera and walk around the lake watching itik buat kuak lentang make me sengih x ingat dunia
luar alam I am...but few escapisms for countless times when i couldnt keep up with my own heart battle
this year is really tough.
for heart which cant just settle down.
losing my support system
for a cold me to cry even they crossed my mind
as tough as i appeared to be.
I just cant keep up.
May Allah bless them for changing me for a better person
owe them big time
my prayers always with you guys.always
looking for the root of the problem...and its really a test from Allah
How much I can endure...how much I could take.
To change for good aint easy.and the three months home affects me in every way possible
came back here crippled here and there
to heal back all the broken parts...take longer time then before
an advise...I am losing my heart.and the journey to find back the heart aint easy
looking for support...so I wont be lost.but paranoid of any attachment makes it a lot more harder.
and at the end...here I am...as blur as I could be.as heartbroken and haywire as I could say.Big hug for those who can endure.and those who cant.because i know.I am a tough creature for anyone to handle with care.wheauuu~
whatever it is...
what is life if it is just plain without any splash of dark colours
I made a promised to myself it will not be about heart ranting...but here I am ranting over stuff.I think nobody cares.peace.^^.V