squeee the lemon...make it as lemon juice.suck it all.Allah is forever wit you.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Qudwah Hasanah...lah sangat!

Entry ni untuk sentap. Menyentapkan diri sendiri.

Have heard of this alien "Qudwah Hasanah"

Dalam bahasa yang paling mudah: contoh tauladan yang baik.

And kalau terpijak kaki dalam ladang dakwah dan tarbiyyah, we strive to be one. Especially when familly matters. Bukan semua keluarga boleh hadap anak-anak nak membetulkan whats wrong and whats right in everyday actions. Tambah lagi dengan 'budaya' Melayu.

Orang tua makan garam dulu. Thats what they said.

And, the best way is through actions. It speaks louder and works better at times.

Matlamat saya sepanjang cuti, nak berbakti kat parents, jadi anak soleh solehah, buat kerja rumah and the list goes on.

Common answers. And none of them wrong.

And its never easy.

Kalau nak kira buat. Semua orang mungkin boleh buat. Either dalam paksa atau rela.

What I learnt is, qudwah hasanah from the smallest actions which meant big.

It starts from ATTITUDE

Adik, dah masuk waktu, solat. Adik buat muka batu. Takpe, adikkk..solat zohor.

Setengah jam later,

Adik da solat blom? Mata glued to tv, blooommmm.

And thats when The Hulk came.

Angah kata solatttt! Pegi solattt. I count to three and I want you on your prayer mat!

And this is. EVERYDAY.

And I was at fault. Yelling. Attitude fail and I expect him to remember to pray awal waktu.NO. He wont with yelling.

At times. I really think. My attitude as dai'e is messed up.

And reflecting this every night before I sleep. I thought, Shaytan won again today. Made me lose my temper and blow off my mind.

Anger.

Anyone can take over you when you dont know how to control your temper.

And the attitude you show totally reflects your inner self.

Therefore.

Istighfar

And may Allah gives strength to start the day anew. And showers others with the beauty of Islam and Iman.

Reflected by Muslim. By heart.

Randomthoughtseveniwascluelesswhatiranthere.

Jaded
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Saturday, December 14, 2013

Perception

sigh...

tangan menggaru kepala yang tak berapa nak gatal.buntu.facing 34 kids in a classroom ain't easy.they are not 'us' years ago whom respect and fear teachers.everyday conversation macam ayam and itik.English is alien for most of them.and the class was chaotic.everytime.

but again

mungkin aku lupa.realitinya Allah datangkan mereka sebagai ujian.Allah tidak akan menguji hambaNya di luar kemampuan.

English might be alien...try not to make it alien to them.

They only fear teacher whom can throw them out of window.not the one that treated them with care and love.

They have no respect towards teacher.because they never understand the value of respecting others.

They can't follow rules. Because they were forced to follow rules.

Kadang.

You have to see a cuboid.not a plain square shape with four sides.

Then.

Start understanding.


Subtle lesson

Today
I was tested...

But
Allah has His own way
Of reminding me

When I sit and reflect
When people think of your bad more than your good
That means you have not done much good
And

"Always make peace..even it means to swallow your pride"


R...ational?

It was past one year when I felt the need of throwing the never ending list of songs i had...really.earpiece was left out whenever I went out.which is abnormal.

Indeed.from headbanging song to mellow nasyid songs aint easy.

And proven, none of them stuck in my head except a few piece from zain bikha and the clan.

It hit me thou.

Between both facts.getting rid of everything and start clean.or slowly get rid of the bad habit and replacing with something new.

The analogy was like a full glass of water and when you take out a bit of them, u have the emptiness that should be filled with.

The drastic of getting rid of the list wasnt a big help.Youtube is there.

And I keep on listening as my rationalisation was I did not commit anything wrong by listening.by being moderate and knowing the limit and keeping everything balance.

But ultimately, I know. I should cut the tie.

Just.not.yet

Its hard. To handle people's perception on you.
Thou you know their judgement won't effect the Judgement by Him.

People walk their path differently.
As some might have to make a simple U-turn to get back on the right path.
Some might get stuck in traffic.
Or even get lost in the middle and have to take miles to find way back.

But ultimately, they keep on moving and hopefully end up on the right same spot as others.

We have different struggles. Each and everyone of us.
As long as we realize our final pitstop.
I know we would crawl if we have to
To reach the final destination.
Never fret then, Allah is watching.

People's talking.
Yahh..it hurt.
But let not them glue us to the ground.
Fly if you could.
Walk if you can't.
Crawl if its too much.
And stand up right when you recharge.

Tapi kadang..even you have to beat the rationalisation and rationalize is it really rational.got it.jangan nak memanjang watlek watpeace.skali Allah tarik nyawa.mampu nak tengok timbang tara pahala dosa kat 'sana'?
Spirit.


Saturday, October 26, 2013

Teguran

Weyh...kuang asam.bak balik air aku.

Kedekut tahap gaban la ko ni Bilal.aku minum sikit jer.minum air manis banyak-banyak kena diabetis.tak sahut seruan kerajaan betul.buat letih deorang naikkan harga gula.

Yerla Uwais.membebel ko pandai.rokok kat tangan kau ape citer?GST nak naik.harga barang makin mahal.sanggup jugak hari-hari kau sedut asap.aku taleh brain la.

Gelagat mereka aku pandang.both have valid argument.tapi biasalah...when someone touches on your weak point.you defend yourself by bringing down the other party.

Lagaknya kerajaan lawan pembangkang.
Tak pernah menang mencari salah.

Basisnya.
Kita pantang di tegur.
Baik tua baik muda.

Orang yang menegur kadang menegur mengejek.
Kalau yang menegur ikhlas.di katakan poyo.
Akhirnya..sama-sama hanyut.

Bosan menegur
Bosan di tegur

Statik lah kita.
Tunggu sampai Allah tegur?

Jaded.
Random evening.
It smells raindrop.