Monday, October 22, 2012
Trying to stay awake after subuh and flipping through facebook...and my eyes stop at one of the pictures.
A deep sigh...sad...mad?
I don't know.
Weak...for not being able to stop things and correct 'em.
Weak...for your words not to be taken into actions.
Weak...for not being able to pull you,we us together to Jannah
Mata masuk habuk.
From afar...I can just pray for you.looking at myself with so much imperfections, probably that hinders the good words from reaching you.
Sunday, October 14, 2012
zasss...kepala laju jer pusing tengok makhluk mana yang berani hempuk aku dengan bag.
woittt...agak2 la.pantang men cepuk-cepuk aci redah ni
heeee...ko ni.rilek la.kata bday harini.da 22 kot...tua dah weyh.
aku diam...dah 22.calculator otak laju mengira.harini..22 years old.T_______T.rase mcam baru smalam baling kasut dekat budak laki zaman skolah rendah.baru smalam jugak rase lompat pagar sekolah semata-mata nak beli kuih manja belakang pagar sekolah.that...was wayyyy before.keluhan berat x semena-mena aku lepaskan.
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Sunday, September 2, 2012
back from friend's open house.and just not feel right to keep it to myself and not spilling it out.so i choose this blog.for me to rant.
One of my mates remind me that everything outside is determine by whats inside.yes!that tiny muscle in ones body, but its like the main controller for the Xbox.it controls everything.for you to lose or to win in this endless fight on dunya and for what you can bring to the day of judgement.*sigh*
"Its easy to look pious, but its not easy to act pious"
True indeed, you put long hijab and jubah,people will start calling you ustazah.=.="..easy pitsy to cheat on human eyes. I am not saying this to say that those who are trying to change their outside appearance as being hypocrite, because you have to for the sake of Allah.my point is, when we tried so hard to change our outside appearance, don't leave our heart unattended. Because shaytan, they have no better things to do other than poisoning our hearts with the bad whispers.
I think I have make a u turn by saying all those stuff...
My point is, I cant bear seeing any my hands-on-your-hands or any sort of close contact between two opposite gender without them having any official halal relationship.Just cant help myself to have that tiny whispers in heart.that ad whispers.
and more...for not being able to say a word to stop any of those acts.
for the opposite genders, both of them. its really hard to deal with when we are talking about heart. so, first thing is to avoid it. avoidance...run from it.block it in any way possible.u will have nothing to lose.Allah has a better plan for you and your another half.inshaAllah...
remember...and a constant reminder.
jaded 2311 020912
Thursday, August 30, 2012
This morning...as I scrolled through the Facebook updates...I stumbled upon my senior's post about Mas Afzal.again.reading his blog before.It was just inspiring.there is no word that can describe how much suffering that he had went through.yet...the never ending spirit of him light others life.erti hidup pada memberi?he showed it well...
After long silence, Mas Afzal's mom wrote this-heart-melting short post about his son.How he affected others in every way possible. Just by reading this post, I learnt one thing, be the one who enlighten others. Because you never know when will you need to leave this stop, and return to where you belong to.indeed life is short.
So, here today.reflecting on my own self whom often get mad, high tempered homo sapien.the one who doesn't know how to act as "soft spoken"...socially awkward and easily get annoyed with people.heyyyy,you are not living in this world with no purpose.and you don't know when is your end day too.changing...or at least try to change.kick out all those bad habit of yours.change to please Allah because He likes all the good characters.bit by bit...the tiny baby steps are counted.:)
This is one of the curahat...shortened from curahan hati.xD..
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Tuesday, August 21, 2012
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Tuesday, May 1, 2012
I would start this entry by apologising for being so hot-tempered gaya gunung berapi yg nak meletup all the time...
Sometimes...there are stuff that others might forsee
And there are times when a homo sapien just cant be patience as they shud be
Thats why we are all weak human being
Nobody is perfect
I keep myself silence
So there wont be any harsh words coming out
Which surely i will regret a lot later
Just so you know...am not mad.far from breaking or cutting off the ukhuwah
But...there is a lot more inside that i need to endure
I need the silence...for awhile
Deepest apology from my behalf