squeee the lemon...make it as lemon juice.suck it all.Allah is forever wit you.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

its hard to say i dont know

alhamdulillah...its the family again.
berbulatan gembira using ym conference for the very first time.^^

and the sharing for today is

[the story]

Alhamdulillah...a great sharing.a reminder for myself not to always bluntly answer any questions without digging further about them and knowing them in details. Homo sapiens...with flaws here and there...the urge to be seen as perfect all known person sometimes tends to admit that they know things that they don't really know.or they know 40.37% of it and not the rest of them.But yes...they say...they do.i say i do.=.=".sometimes we did that to get recognition,sometimes we did that because we are ashamed to admit that we don't know.

Imam al-Muhasibi menegaskan ; "Janganlah malu apabila ditanya tentang perkara yang tidak diketahui agar mengaku: Saya tidak tahu."(1)

Fear of how others will look at you...and rather tell things that you are not really sure?

Imam al-Munawi pula menegaskan ; "Jawapan 'saya tidak tahu' bukti betapa hebatnya kedudukan, betapa kuatnya pegangan agama, terzahir sifat taqwa terhadap Tuhannya, menyatakan kesucian hati, sempurna pengetahuan dan betapa tulus niatnya."(2) 

It reminds me of a saying that says the more we learn and we know that there are more that we don't know. The knowledge of Allah is everywhere, we will not be able to know each of them.but we have to learn as much as we could. As a Muslim, we better have the knowledge of Islam, seek for the knowledge that will guarantee us for hereafter. Because if not, we are among those in lost. And for the knowledge that we seek, then we can share it with others.As we aim to enter Jannah together...with our families and friends...and all.don't afraid to share, but to be able to share we have to know.and for that we have to learn.indeed, job of a learner is for lifetime and there will be no ending for it.

and when we don't know...next time.just say...saya tak tahu.and let others teach us.feel the joy of knowing something new.^^
Diriwayatkan dari Ibnu Abdil Barr di dalam Jami' Bayan al-Ilmi wa Fadlih sesungguhnya ulama' berkata ;
"Belajarlah untuk berkata saya tidak tahu, sesungguhnya jika engkau. berkata sedemikian, orang pasti mengajar engkau sehingga engkau tahu. Sebaliknya jika engkau sentiasa mengaku dengan berkata saya tahu, nescaya mereka akan bertanya sehingga engkau tidak tahu."

"sampaikanlah darimu walaupun sepotong ayat"

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Ikrimah Ibn Abu Jahl

RED ALERT!!This post is super long.Worth reading thou.InshaALLAH.

Its late night rambling...sitting alone on the bed in the dark while browsing for story of sahabat makes me ponder of few things. There are more of them which i haven't know, which i haven't take any ibrah (read:lesson/pengajaran) from. Even if I had read about them, its really hard for me to remember each and everyone of them despite their so-ohsemm-could-not-be-compared-with-sacrifices. 

Did i read them with my heart or am i reading their stories in the same ways as i read Sheldon's, Brown's, Stephen King's, etc...browse through.read and forgot.EMPTY.i can even say i sometimes do remember the story plot even it is as thick as my literature books.*sigh*.

So, here I am sharing one of the sahabat stories which i just got to know...or i had read about him and i forgot.

This is him...known as Ikrimah Ibn Abu Jahl

He was at the end of the third decade of his life on the day the Prophet made public his call to guidance and truth. He was held in high regard by the Quraysh, being wealthy and of noble lineage. Some others like him, Saud ibn Abi Waqqas, Musab ibn Umayr and other sons of noble families in Makkah had become Muslims. He too might have followed their example were it not for his father. His father, Abu Jahl, was the foremost proponent of Shirk and one of the greatest tyrants of Makkah. Through torture, he sorely tested the faith of the early believers but they remained steadfast. He used every stratagem to make them waver but they continued to affirm the truth. 

Ikrimah found himself defending the leadership and authority of his father as he pitted himself against the Prophet. His animosity towards the Prophet, his persecution of his followers and his attempts to block the progress of Islam and the Muslims won the admiration of his father. 

At Badr, Abu Jahl led the Makkan polytheists in the battle against the Muslims. He swore by al-Laat and al-Uzza that he would not return to Makkah unless he crushed Muhammad. At Badr he sacrificed three camels to these Allahdesses. He drank wine and had the music of singing girls to spur the Quraysh on to fight. 

Abu Jahl was among the first to fall in the battle. His son Ikrimah saw him as spears pierced his body and heard him let out his last cry of agony. Ikrimah returned to Makkah leaving behind the corpse of the Quraysh chieftain, his father. He wanted to bury him in Makkah but the crushing defeat they suffered made this impossible. 

From that day, the fire of hatred burned even more fiercely in the heart of Ikrimah. Others whose fathers were killed at Badr, also became more hostile to Muhammad and his followers. This eventually led to the Battle of Uhud. 

At Uhud Ikrimah was accompanied by his wife, Umm Hakim. She and other women stood behind the battle lines beating their drums, urging the Quraysh on to battle and upbraiding any horseman who felt inclined to flee. 

Leading the right flank of the Quraysh was Khalid ibn Walid. On the left was Ikrimah ibn Abu Jahl. The Quraysh inflicted heavy losses on the Muslims and felt that they had avenged themselves for the defeat at Badr. This was not, however, the end of the state of conflict. 

At the battle of the Ditch, the Quraysh mushrikun besieged Madinah. It was a long siege. The resources and the patience of the mushrikun were wearing out. Ikrimah, feeling the strain of the siege, saw a place where the ditch, dug by the Muslims, was relatively narrow. With a gigantic effort, he managed to cross. A small group of Quraysh followed him. It was a foolhardy undertaking. One of them was immediately killed and it was only by turning on his heels that Ikrimah managed to save himself. 

Nine years after his hijrah, the Prophet returned with thousands of his companions to Makkah. The Quraysh saw them approaching and decided to leave the way open for them because they knew that the Prophet had given instructions to his commanders not to open hostilities. Ikrimah and some others however went against the consensus of the Quraysh and attempted to block the progress of the Muslim forces. Khalid ibn al-Walid, now a Muslim, met and defeated them in a small engagement during which some of Ikrimah's men were killed and others who could fled. Among those who escaped was Ikrimah himself. 

Any standing or influence that Ikrimah may have had was now completely destroyed. The Prophet, peace be upon him, entered Makkah and gave a general pardon and amnesty to all Quraysh who entered the sacred mosque, or who stayed in their houses or who went to the house of Abu Sufyan, the paramount Quraysh leader. However he refused to grant amnesty to a few individuals whom he named. He gave orders that they should be killed even if they were found under the covering of the Kabah. At the top of this list was Ikrimah ibn Abu Jahl. When Ikrimah learnt of this, he slipped out of Makkah in disguise and headed for the Yemen. 

Umm Hakim, Ikrimah's wife, then went to the camp of the Prophet. With her was Hind bint Utbah, the wife of Abu Sufyan and the mother of Muawiyah, and about ten other women who wanted to pledge allegiance to the Prophet. At the camp, were two of his wives, his daughter Fatimah and some women of the Abdulmuttalib clan. Hind was the one who spoke. She was veiled and ashamed of what she had done to Hamzah, the Prophet's uncle, at the battle of Uhud. 

"O Messenger of Allah," she said, "Praise be to Allah Who has made manifest the religion He has chosen for Himself. I beseech you out of the bonds of kinship to treat me well. I am now a believing woman who affirms the Truth of your mission." She then unveiled herself and said: 

"I am Hind, the daughter of Utbah, O Messenger of Allah. " 

"Welcome to you," replied the Prophet, peace be on him. 

"By Allah, O Prophet" continued Hind, "there was not a house on earth that I wanted to destroy more than your house. Now, there is no house on earth that I so dearly wish to honor and raise in glory than yours." 

Umm Hakim then got up and professed her faith in Islam and said: "O Messenger of Allah, Ikrimah has fled from you to the Yemen out of fear that you would kill him. Grant him security and Allah will grant you security." 

"He is secure," promised the Prophet. Umm Hakim set out immediately in search of Ikrimah. Accompanying her was a Greek slave. When they had gone quite far on the way, he tried to seduce her but she managed to put him off until she came to a settlement of Arabs. She sought their help against him. They tied him up and kept him. Umm Hakim continued on her way until she finally found Ikrimah on the coast of the Red Sea in the region of Tihamah. He was negotiating transport with a Muslim seaman who was saying to him: 

"Be pure and sincere and I will transport you." 

"How can I be pure?" asked Ikrimah. 

"Say, I testify that there is no Allah but Allah and that Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah." 

"I have fled from this very thing," said Ikrimah. 

At this point, Umm Haklm came up to Ikrimah and said: 

"O cousin, I have come to you from the most generous of men, the most righteous of men, the best of men... from Muhammad ibn Abdullah. I have asked him for an amnesty for you. This he has granted. So do not destroy yourself. " 

"Have you spoken to him?" 

"Yes, I have spoken to him and he has granted you amnesty," she assured him and he returned with her. She told him about the attempt of their Greek slave to dishonor her and Ikrimah went directly to the Arab settlement where he lay bound and killed him. 

At one of their resting places on their way back, Ikrimah wanted to sleep with his wife but she vehemently refused and said: 

"I am a Muslimah and you are a Mushrik." 

Ikrimah was totally taken aback and said, "Living without you and without your sleeping with me is an impossible situation." As Ikrimah approached Makkah, the Prophet, peace be upon him, told his companions: "Ikrimah ibn Abu Jahl shall come to you as a believer and a muhajir (a refugee). Do not insult his father. Insulting the dead causes grief to the living and does not reach the dead." 

Ikrimah and his wife came up to where the Prophet was sitting. The Prophet got up and greeted him enthusiastically. 

"Muhammad," said Ikrimah, "Umm Hakim has told me that you have granted me an amnesty." 

"That's right," said the Prophet, "You are safe." 

"To what do you invite?" asked Ikrimah. 

"I invite you to testify that there is no Allah but Allah and that I am the servant of Allah and His messenger, to establish Prayer and pay the Zakat and carry out all the other obligations of Islam." 

"By Allah," responded Ikrimah, "You have only called to what is true and you have only commanded that which is good. You lived among us before the start of your mission and then you were the most trustworthy of us in speech and the most righteous of us." Stretching forth his hands he said, "I testify that there is no Allah but Allah and that Muhammad is His servant and His messenger." The Prophet then instructed him to say, "I call on Allah and those present here to witness that I am a Muslim who is a Mujahid and a Muhajir". This Ikrimah repeated and then said: 

"I ask you to ask Allah for forgiveness for me for all the hostility I directed against you and for whatever insults I expressed in your presence or absence." The Prophet replied with the prayer: 

"O Lord, forgive him for all the hostility he directed against me and from all the expeditions he mounted wishing to put out Your light. Forgive him for whatever he has said or done in my presence or absence to dishonor me." 

Ikrimahs face beamed with happiness. 

"By Allah, O messenger of Allah, I promise that whatever I have spent obstructing the way of Allah, I shall spend twice as much in His path and whatever battles I have fought against Allah's way I shall fight twice as much in His way." 

From that day on, Ikrimah was committed to the mission of Islam as brave horseman in the field of battle and as a steadfast worship per who would spend much time in mosques rending the book of Allah. Often he would place the mushaf on his face and say, "The Book of my Lord, the words of my Lord" and he would cry from the fear of Allah. 

Ikrimah remained true to his pledge to the Prophet. Whatever battles the Muslims engaged in thereafter, he participated in them and he was always in the vanguard of the army. At the battle of Yarmuk he plunged into the attack as a thirsty person after cold water on a blistering hot day. In one encounter in which the Muslims were under heavy attack, Ikrimah penetrated deep into the ranks of the Byzantine. Khalid ibn al-Walid rushed up to him and said, "Don't, Ikrimah. Your death will be a severe blow to the Muslims." 

"Let us carry on, Khalid," said Ikrimah, now at the peak of motivation. "You had the privilege of being with the Messenger of Allah before this. As for myself and my father, we were among his bitterest enemies. Leave me now to atone for what I have done in the past. I fought the Prophet on many occasions. Shall I now flee from the Byzantines? This shall never be." Then calling out to the Muslims, he shouted, "Who shall pledge to fight until death?" 

Four hundred Muslims including al-Harith ibn Hisham and Ayyash ibn Abi Rabiah responded to his call. They plunged into the battle and fought heroically without the leadership of Khalid ibn al-Walid. Their daring attack paved the way for a decisive Muslim victory. 

When the battle was over, the bodies of three wounded mujahideen lay sprawled on the battleground, among them Al-Harith ibn Hisham, Ayyash ibn Abi Rabiah and Ikrimah ibn Abu Jahl. Al-Harith called for water to drink. As it was brought to him, Ayyash looked at him and Harith said: 

"Give it to Ayyash." By the time they got to Ayyash, he had just breathed his last. When they returned to al-Harith and Ikrimaha, they found that they too had passed away. 

The companions prayed that Allah may be pleased with them all and grant them refreshment from the spring of Kawthar in Paradise, a refreshment after which there is thirst no more. 

sahabat...they change and fight for Jannah once they received the light.doesnt matter how bad we were in the past.always repent.ALLAH is the Most Forgiving.


ups and down ... >.<"
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Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Heya kembaq...^^

Heya shabby blog...its been awhile since the last post.busy...am I?I don't think so...indeed wasting time was what i've been doing since am back in Malaysia.

"When you build wall around you to keep you out from sadness, you also keep yourself away from happiness"

indeed...but you teach me to let go of the past...

Stumbled upon this quote past few days and come to think about it.Its almost the truth of it.but again...its better not to laugh your heart out and walk your head down the other day crying.Well again, maybe there is someone who you can open up to and depend on.Its worth to crack your wall sometimes...like what I've did and she is really a gift from ALLAH for me.a grant of happiness.a special kind of double.a super duper great friend and sister.

hey twin...i miss you...>_< [mushy mode]

The naughty minded us when we swapping nametag during this camp sampay kena sound dengan kak Farah...and all the fight we had sleeping in the same room just for three days.^^...and we become so close just in 4 months.super great...tough times when you are leaving thou..=.="...lets keep holding on.the path won't be easy but i will be there for you girl..inshaALLAH.lets seek for Him and find happiness and bless from him.may the relationship that ties us last till Jannah.

When I'm lost in the rain

In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way, when I'm scared losing ground
When my world is going crazy you can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield, from the storm for a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, I turn to you
For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on
For everything you do, for everything that's true, I turn to you

When I lose the will to win
I just reach for you and I can reach the sky again
I can do anything 'cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend you're always on my side
Giving me faith taking me through the night.

this song is well said...
Dua orang mukmin adalah ibarat dua  ketul logam...
selalu bergesel dan mengeluarkan api...
dan yang meredakannya adalah ukhwah.^^
p/s: kembaq...i woke up every morning  praying for the best of everything ahead for both of us.
never quit and never let go...^_~V
Jzkk for the ohsem you...and thank ALLAH for sure for granting me you.<3


Saturday, September 24, 2011

reset compass


Kami persembahkan jiwa-jiwa kami kepada ALLAH

Tiada ketakutan dan kesedihan bagi sesiapa yang diberiNya petunjuk

TaliNya kukuh takkan terlerai

RezekiNya sentiasa ada buat yang memerlukan

Di setiap tempat

Di setiap ketika

Di atas sana ada Tuhan Maha Agung yang memeliharamu

Di mana jua

Pada bila-bila masa

Kau punya Tuhan yang sentiasa menyayangimu dan

Tidak pernah melupakanmu

Adakah kita masih punya rasa takut terhadapNya?

Adakah kita perasan nikmat Allah kepada kita?

Adakah kita masih punya rasa takut kepadaNya?

Adakah kita masih lagi sentiasa memujiNya?


Adakah kita telah pun melupaiNya?

Tiada Tuhan selain Allah

Tiada Tuhan selain Allah

Kita hidup di bawah kekuasaanNya selagi mana Dia kehendaki

Kita menikmati kemurahan daripadaNya dengan berdoa

Kita berhajatkan kebaikan daripadaNya dengan penuh pengharapan

Tempat kita berlindung tatkala ujian dirasakan begitu berat

Di mana jua

Pada bila-bila masa

Di atas sana ada Tuhan Maha Agung yang memeliharamu

Di mana jua

Pada bila-bila masa

Kau punya Tuhan yang sentiasa menyayangimu dan tidak pernah melupakanmu

Adakah kita masih punya rasa takut terhadapNya

Adakah kita perasan nikmat Allah kepada kita?

Adakah kita masih punya rasa takut kepadaNya?

Adakah kita masih lagi sentiasa memujiNya?

Atau adakah kita telah pun melupaiNya?

Hatiku untuk ALLAH

Seluruh nyawaku untuk ALLAH

Cita-citaku untuk ALLAH

Segalanya hanya kerana ALLAH

Hatiku untuk ALLAH

Seluruh nyawaku untuk ALLAH

Cita-citaku untuk ALLAH

Segalanya hanya kerana ALLAH

at the end...how far is the truth?
recheck our heart...does it says the same thing?
where do we put ALLAH in our everyday life..

reminder..for me and for you.
mode:jom muhasabah even if its every 5 sec


Friday, September 23, 2011


Hari-hari manusia update facebook...

Kalau binatang ade facebook, agak-agak ape status mereka ?

NYAMUK : Baru habis ronda rumah Ajoi . kenyang erkk . Alhamdulillah .

CICAK : isteriku tersepit pintu !

KUCING BETINA: “Anak i yg ke-5 baru tanya siapa bapaknya . i bingung nak jawab ape . i sendiri lupa bapaknya siapa.”

AYAM : Kawan2 . kalau esok gua x update . bererti gua sudah digoreng . I love u all . jangan lupe wat kenduri arwah untuk i ye .

NYAMUK: Siot, sekali drug addict gua hentam . Gua positif HIV AIDS. uwaaaaaaa :(

KUCING: Baru je add awek sebelah rumah . keturunan PARSI babe !!!

BABI : Aku bengang betul la . dia g pijak taik kucing tapi nama aku yang disebutnye. wei bro! respect la sikit ! tension !!

*gelak golek-golek?
First reaction?

Laughing or sengih macam kerang busuk depan laptop...

honestly...am the one who "sengih macam  kerang busuk" tue...for ten seconds

before i look at this jokes from the other perspectives and

i saw me doing the same stupid things like them

refresh facebook..reading other's status without any purpose

and yeahhh...masa terbuang macam tue jer..=.="

sama ke kita dengan ermmmm...menda-menda yang kat atas

tak sampai hati nak sebut...yaiii~

ape speselnyer kita sebagai makhluk yang diberikan akal

sobsob...*masuk menyorok bawah katil..maluuu*


tanak yang tanak tanak

nonsense tajuk?
well...mendalam maksud tajuk tu..
terase lemahnya diri sebab nak tarik kawan kita masuk bulatan gembira tapi tak berjaya
if only i can drag "kawan" to bulatan gembira just for one time
i will do that.."kawan"


kita gaduh gaya ribut taufan garuda petala kelima pon
aku sayang ko lagi..aku tanak ko hanyut yang sehanyut-hanyutnya
kalo kita boleyh pegang tali tue sama-sama walau hujung yang sikit tue pon
i will spare some for you...and you
at least...selemah-lemah iman..sebab aku pon tak cukup kuat
nak jadi qudwah hasanah dekat orang-orang sekeliling
tak cukup tarbiyah ke hati yang x cukup clean..sendiri paham la kan.=.="
tapi seungguhnya hati manusia ALLAH yang pegang..
aku doakan ALLAH berikan aku kekuatan nak jalinkan semula persahabatan yang putus tu
niat aku..inshaALLAH...nak bawak ko masuk bulatan gembira sekali.
sentap rase once i heard u pushing this "thing" away
don't ever put me in that thing...*facepalm*
if I can sit face to face and explain things to you
but i think am not strong enough..
even face to face conversation...
aku doakan kau "kawan",dapat spark.mana tahu ko jadi daie yang sangat hebat..
.maafkan aku sebab tak cukup kuat untuk tarik korang..T_T

butttt....looking at this from positive sides...jom sama-sama ubah diri to be a better person...inside and outside.inshaALLAH
betulkan niat..moga ALLAH permudahkan
tade orang kata pon jalan ni mudah..
heh..ingat nak masuk syurga ALLAH senang ke..takat gaya ni ujian nak banding ngan sahabat
jauhhh sangat lagi..*air mata gaya air terjun*
jangan mengalah..yoshhh

mode:kena cari berus besi cuci hati..literally saying.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

life kicks me down...sometimes

in the mood where everything is falling apart and you're watching without doing anything..
yeah...worthless.but being ignorant for things that you shudnt have to...
when people break aparts just because assignments..
just because trifle things..how much you want to be there to help and not to be at the side watching..
come on guys...these are trifle things..you have other problems which are far more important to look at.
stop being so-sensitive me because others do have feelings too..
jom kita ignorant kan perasaan madzmumah tue...
we are sisters...biarlah marah kita tue marah kerana ALLAH
marah sebab sisters yang kita sayang langgar hukum ALLAH
bukan sebab dye pegi makan nasik goreng kampung x ajak kita..=.="
tak perlu la kot sume perkara2 yang x ohsem tue..rasanyer..

if falling apart and being a lone ronger sometimes is good...just accept the fact..maybe our Khaliq cemburu tengok hambaNya lebihkan org lain dari dye..sebab..

sometimes when we feel isolated and separated from others, we feel like stranger among friends, it makes we feel empty and we will start searching something to feel up our heart. We then realize that emptiness can only be filled with HIM, ALLAH...and then we understand the meaning of "bahawa sessungguhnya hanya dengan mengingati ALLAH hati itu akan tenang"

kan...*facepalm*..mengaku la kan.hahaha.kadang-kadang kita lebihkan orang lain.konpem la orang yang ciptakan kita jealous..=.="
sedangkan dia cipta kita bukan untuk bergaduh benda-benda yang kecik-kecik
eishhh..tak matured.dah-dah la yerp..
anyways...always remember
everything happens for a reason..no matter what it is..
kita tak nampak hari ni baik dye..esok lusa nampak inshaAllah
even after two years baru realize pon boleyh..^^
kadang-kadang masalah yang kecik2 ni ALLAH datangkan sebab nak uji hati kita tough ke tak
yang x tough tue dye nak bagi tough lagi
nanti nak jumpa orang lain lagi banyak ragam..
kalo setakat sikit-sikit ni kacang jer la
x gitu..*positif gile..lalala*

in short:hati gundah gelana..keluh kesah..tensen..kasi cek sama itu hati..tuning ade lari..
jom sama-sama muhasabah clorox hati..ade la tue kita slip mana-mana

note for myself...
sisters..uhibbuki fillah..each and everyone of you.
*saya malu cakap depan-depan..

oh...tader gambar owsem..nanti la edit..^_~V