Heartache

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Trying to stay awake after subuh and flipping through facebook...and my eyes stop at one of the pictures.

A deep sigh...sad...mad?

I don't know.

Perhaps

Weak...for not being able to stop things and correct 'em.

Weak...for your words not to be taken into actions.

Weak...for not being able to pull you,we us together to Jannah

Mata masuk habuk.
From afar...I can just pray for you.looking at myself with so much imperfections, probably that hinders the good words from reaching you.

Jaded's
Taringa,Brisbane...23102012

The 2+2 years...

Its the second year...for me to realize the meaning of living.

So...lets say it is my second birthday.

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gedebuk....

zasss...kepala laju jer pusing tengok makhluk mana yang berani hempuk aku dengan bag.

asbestos sungguh.

woittt...agak2 la.pantang men cepuk-cepuk aci redah ni

heeee...ko ni.rilek la.kata bday harini.da 22 kot...tua dah weyh.

aku diam...dah 22.calculator otak laju mengira.harini..22 years old.T_______T.rase mcam baru smalam baling kasut dekat budak laki zaman skolah rendah.baru smalam jugak rase lompat pagar sekolah semata-mata nak beli kuih manja belakang pagar sekolah.that...was wayyyy before.keluhan berat x semena-mena aku lepaskan.

Nurin membetulkan duduk sebelah aku...flip bag hitam merah Nurin ak jeling sekilas.Weyh...kau kenapa?ribut tak hujan tak...mendung semacam.nak ribut petir dah aku tengok.

nafas aku tarik dalam...kepala aku pusing, mengadap Nurin." Ko tak rasa twenty two years of living is really long...and to think about it.I did nothing much in life.Something that can secure me a place in Jannah at least.22 years is not a mark of victory to be able to live up till now...but a reminder that am closer to death.and it is a scary fact.yes?

Nurin diam...when she speaks with that tone.she knows that it is not a time for stupid jokes.

Silence...

And that was just another rant...thinking of having it longer but brain just cant compute to write in Malay and rojak language...I might get sue because of it.hahaha

knowing that 14th of October  is the birth date for one of the most respected man..Imam Syahid Hassan Al-Banna...knew this last year when I was doing some reading and some "islamic" rambling with my bro.this knocked me.to remember that everytime I celebrate my birthday, there is someone, who was born on the same date have done so much for the ummah.and where did I stand.what did I do.wheauu.hence,being grateful for 22 years of living and reflecting.

deep sigh...(-_-'')

Trifles?

Just when the assignments start to pile up on the desk...

Here I am ranting something that probably I will forget.

two months to go...and dear heart starts to think about the fact of leaving brisbane..and one of it is to let go of the kids at KAFA. its just different feeling...when you are trying so hard to get them to be the best of the best generation.who knows about Islam.who proud to be Muslims.and you have to let them go.

Not wanting them to be like "us"?

watching them...innocently asking us how to tell their teacher that they can't hold hand with boys

when we are preaching them its wrong to touch other genders

Have we ever care to tell this to other kids back home?

I would say we miss this minor point

and they grow up being so carefree in socializing

who to blame?just look in the mirror and we will get a clear answer.

Dare to say...been there.done that.

Pray out of ritual...wear what desired.rasa chantek.heh..

and to think it is cool?

whatever it is...

I know that there are thousands of kids in Malaysia

and its the matter of choice for us to pick

to be blame for not teaching them to be a Muslim

or to get rewarded for helping them to be a better one

Its always the matter of choice...

wallahualam...a reminder for self..remember that Allah has His plan.#convincing myself being teacher is one source of pahala.even if you feel awkward to be standing in front and teach.^^

Dear to heart

assalamualaikum...

All the peace and blessing from Him...

Thanking Him for every single breath that we take...have we?

This short entry...for my ol'skul mate

The one who always be there through thick and thin

You know I love you because of Allah didn't you...

hahaha...*blushed*

Its your 22nd birthday

Old enough...haha.am younger thou.=P

So...

Let the 22 years onwards be better than previous years

Let all the silly things passed by because the past doesnt define who you are today,

But the pasts were there just for you to look back sometimes...

reminder for not repeating the old same mistakes...

I am wishing you all the blessing from Him for years to come

May our friendship last sampai syurga

May we both change for better person

May we both run,dance,speed,and drift for our ambition

and be successful here...and also hereafter

Be strong because I know you are strong

Smile regardless all the hardship coming through

As He knows better

And he knows you can endure it well..

 

There will always be rainbow after rain...and surely Allah is always there for you.

worry not..^^

Its a long way ahead...and am not sure till when will we share the laugh and tears

But lets make every little seconds count.:')

love from land down under...^^.<3 br="br">

Heart

assalamualaikum...

back from friend's open house.and just not feel right to keep it to myself and not spilling it out.so i choose this blog.for me to rant.

Heart...
One of my mates remind me that everything outside is determine by whats inside.yes!that tiny muscle in ones body, but its like the main controller for the Xbox.it controls everything.for you to lose or to win in this endless fight on dunya and for what you can bring to the day of judgement.*sigh*

"Its easy to look pious, but its not easy to act pious"

True indeed, you put long hijab and jubah,people will start calling you ustazah.=.="..easy pitsy to cheat on human eyes. I am not saying this to say that those who are trying to change their outside appearance as being hypocrite, because you have to for the sake of Allah.my point is, when we tried so hard to change our outside appearance, don't leave our heart unattended. Because shaytan, they have no better things to do other than poisoning our hearts with the bad whispers.

I think I have make a u turn by saying all those stuff...

My point is, I cant bear seeing any my hands-on-your-hands or any sort of close contact between two opposite gender without them having any official halal relationship.Just cant help myself to have that tiny whispers in heart.that ad whispers.

and more...for not being able to say a word to stop any of those acts.

for the opposite genders, both of them. its really hard to deal with when we are talking about heart. so, first thing is to avoid it. avoidance...run from it.block it in any way possible.u will have nothing to lose.Allah has a better plan for you and your another half.inshaAllah...

remember...and a constant reminder.

jaded 2311 020912